Wednesday, May 16, 2007

a mind of my own?

Recently i have discovered that in a lot of instances i don't have a mind of my own. Contrary to common belief i am not at all stubborn, and i am quite the obliging little kid.
Mainly with my parents.
My new house it basically my mom's house. I let her do everything, structure everything and do everything her way. It was my way of thanking her for everything she was doing. i say " yes mama" "ok mama" "7ader mama"
But now i am having second thoughts!
I have always wanted a punching bag, a walk in closet, a big mirror accorss the wall, an empty house. instead i got a shit load of furniture and 5 beds and 3 wardrobes. and i live alone!
why should i accomodate for the visitors?!

If i am not gona do what i want now, when will I?

The question is how do i take a step back after so much has been done.... and how do i stand my ground and do what i want? and tell my mom to butt out!

A plan is in progress!

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