Yesterday i spoke with Assem ( Egypt/Canada) who kindof pointed out that i have way to much time on my hands.
Today i have checked Weblogs that belong to people i do not even know! some people of Jen's list.
So i kindof get the point Assem!
As i was checking those Blogs i Checked Assem's and Jill ( a girl from the US whom i met briefly in IC). Like me they ran for MCP and did not get it.
They all went on about how much they have learned yada yada yada, so i thought, what have i learned?
Nothing! (except that tamer is a great AIESECer and a great guy, which i already knew!!)
I gave a speech like any other Speech, i answered Questions, meh i would rate my perfromance at an even 6 out of 10.
I have given myself 8/10 before, but like once or twice.
Maybe that is why i have not learned?! I didn't exactly try that hard, the result was known from the beginning. Is that why?
Another thing is maybe our MC Elections? It's easier that EB selection!
7 minute speech?! when i ran for LCP i had 10 minutes.
1 hour of Q&A?!! again LC VPs Q&A is 1 hour!
It was basically 3 hours, and you're done! Not Nerve Racking, no butterflies, Nothing!
Change is needed.
As for me having waaaay too much time on my hand, it is so true. My Vacation has been a complete and utter Failure.
Number of Visits to the Gym?! ZERO
Number of Calories Eaten in one day? 3000?!! maybe more
Number of hours Slept in one day? 12
Visits to National Democratic Party? None
Articles written for magazines? None
Number of Movies seen? 10
Number of friends episodes seen? 40
Team day for EBs? Not Done
TL preparation? Not Done
I can find excuses for the last two things only!
Signs of Depression? Signs of Boredom? Signs of Irresponsibility?
3 comments:
Hey babe,
The only person who can inspire you to take action is you. It is sad you think you learnt nothing from running for NCP as the people there watching learnt a lot from you and questioning themselves. Think about the fact that some first year was sitting in the front row and thought WOW I can run for NCP in a few years. That is a big responsibility !!! I know you inspired me (hence the buckets of tears).
Dig deep Luly and come out on top being the amazing person I know you are. Throw out the movies, and avoid the bed and do something brilliant !!
Jennifer xxx
Well Luli,
You successfully passed the first stage. DENIAL! Now that you know how much free time you have you know there is so much you can and will do :)
In terms of learning from Elections, I believe the election process isnt as short as the 7 minute speech you gave and a few Q&As! The process started once you decided that you will run. This took over a month or two.
As for learning, there is probably a bunch of things you learned you just don’t know it yet besides learning more about yourself and your strengths and weaknesses you should have realized how much people look up to you in AIESEC Egypt and probably the world. Your impact on people definitely goes beyond the scope you think. You have learned about your performance during NatCo that means you should know how to improve from a 6/10 to a perfect 10. Most importantly you are currently learning how to turn your emotions after elections (no matter what the result is) to energy and motivation to impact more people.
I am positive you learned much of that already. But again you are either in DENIAL or have not processed what you learned from this great experience yet.
Either way, I am sure you will overcome it and turn this short stage of de-motivation to one with much action, impact and results on all of the personal, academic and AIESEC fronts.
Cheer up :)
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